Back 2 Life
2 days on my back and I wasn't even going 4 a porn record! Nope, in my case it was debilitating lower back pain. Caused by what? No idea. I know that I strained some muscles during my last pseudo-workout at the gym, but that was last Tuesday. Well, anyhoo, it's a LOT better today, thank God. It's not 100% but at least I'm not walking around like I'm 80 and crippled today. It really sux being limited like that. Just another thing we all take for granted ... free movement.
Speaking of free movement, I spoke (at nauseating length) about my "free movement" this summer. He thinks I've really jumped off the boat like a madman by deciding to leave my comfy, cozy, easy and incredibly dull and lifesucking job this summer and be unemployed for 90 days while I build my marketing business. He thinks I'm really fucking nuts. He recounted my every failure of the last ten years, including the miserable job I've done of attaining any semblance of a music career and thinks I'm living in a fantasy world. He tells me over and over again, take a good job, stay there and build a retirement fund for myself over the next 30 years.
Can I vomit now? Sure, I've had failures, but all my failures are just bringing me that much closer to success. I'm not going to give up on what I want because that will be the greatest failure of all. He'll never understand that. And from the outside looking in maybe I do look like a big loser. I'll be 30 this year and what do I have to show for it? Nuff said.
But life is more than acquisition. Happiness is not found in status, at least not 4 me it isn't. Money's great, sure, but money is only great because of the choices it gives 2 U. That's why I'm chasing this money dream right now after all, not only for the security of my future, but also because of the choices it will provide me. I'll be able to work my music, act, write, travel ... whatever I want to do and that will be a quality life, not being enslaved to some fucking desk job. Ugh, the thought of 30 more years of working in an office 4 somebody else makes me want 2 stab myself silly!
Anyhoo, enough of that. I'm springing back 2 life here. I ordered another run of Deviant since I sold out, so while I'm planning out my next album launch I can start focusing on marketing Deviant again. Which, by the way, if U dont' have it yet, U can get it right here.
"However do U want me? However do U need me?" - Soul II Soul, Back 2 Life
Speaking of free movement, I spoke (at nauseating length) about my "free movement" this summer. He thinks I've really jumped off the boat like a madman by deciding to leave my comfy, cozy, easy and incredibly dull and lifesucking job this summer and be unemployed for 90 days while I build my marketing business. He thinks I'm really fucking nuts. He recounted my every failure of the last ten years, including the miserable job I've done of attaining any semblance of a music career and thinks I'm living in a fantasy world. He tells me over and over again, take a good job, stay there and build a retirement fund for myself over the next 30 years.
Can I vomit now? Sure, I've had failures, but all my failures are just bringing me that much closer to success. I'm not going to give up on what I want because that will be the greatest failure of all. He'll never understand that. And from the outside looking in maybe I do look like a big loser. I'll be 30 this year and what do I have to show for it? Nuff said.
But life is more than acquisition. Happiness is not found in status, at least not 4 me it isn't. Money's great, sure, but money is only great because of the choices it gives 2 U. That's why I'm chasing this money dream right now after all, not only for the security of my future, but also because of the choices it will provide me. I'll be able to work my music, act, write, travel ... whatever I want to do and that will be a quality life, not being enslaved to some fucking desk job. Ugh, the thought of 30 more years of working in an office 4 somebody else makes me want 2 stab myself silly!
Anyhoo, enough of that. I'm springing back 2 life here. I ordered another run of Deviant since I sold out, so while I'm planning out my next album launch I can start focusing on marketing Deviant again. Which, by the way, if U dont' have it yet, U can get it right here.
"However do U want me? However do U need me?" - Soul II Soul, Back 2 Life
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